When things don't go how you think they should go

A funny thing happened...
I was supposed to do a podcast with Melissa yesterday. It was Memorial Day in US and she was being kept busy with visitors (which she hadn't expected) so we rescheduled for the next day - today. 

I emailed her this morning and confirmed the time and yes, it was today. All good.
The alloted time arrived and the zoom link didn't work. I emailed her and didn't receive a response. The time was ticking and still nothing. 20 minutes post our arranged time, I sent another email. Still nada.... I then checked my sent email folder and neither of the two emails I'd sent were showing up. OK . Weirdness.
More checking and still no emails displayed. I went to my laptop and sent the 3rd of my emails.  That email did show up in my sent folder. So either by now.. Melissa had a inbox full of my emails (groan) or she was maybe still wondering what had happened to me. Although.. I imagine that she would have reached out to me way before that - but I did know one thing..  emails between us sometimes have been extraordinarily slow.

Lets try a different medium I checked to see if she was on messenger... (so grateful for photographs - as there are pages of Melissa's with her Surname in messenger. I rang.. Messenger informed me that as we weren't already connected.. they'd send a message. As I didn't hear back from her fairly quickly....... 
I deduced that something must have happened on her end that didn't allow her to connect with me.

OR was there.. 
I had the thought... 'oh.. she's not calling back because she's changed her mind and doesn't really want to talk to me anymore. Apart from the fact that she had confirmed only 3 hours earlier that we were still go.... but I HAD THE THOUGHT.

Years ago... I would have entertained that thought.. I would have given it legs... (and a whole body ..just saying) 
I would have invited it to stay overnight and stay for dinner!

BUT TODAY... I just decided I wasn't going to buy into that thought. I was going to honour Melissa's integrity, I was not going to entertain the thought that maybe I was being 'ghosted' , I didn't go into 'what did I do to make her ?, ?, ? (add any verb you like here)
I just decided that ... I don't know what's going on... but I'm just going to ride this wave.
It is what it is and I am no less for this experience.
If it's in my highest good, all will be revealed.

Mercury is in retrograde... Mercury retrograde is a disruptor,  especially in communications. Even with email servers lol!
Is it the planets playing with me, is it Melissa? is it just not meant to happen, is it me sabotaging things again....  an endless list.

I thought no more of it... I might hear something or nothing.. I was OK with either. 
I had an experience which didn't go how I thought it would.. but I had an awesome chance to just ride it out and learn new things about myself, my email account! and human nature.

Just an FYI.. the emails I had sent from my phone did show up in my sent folder the next day...

The end result.. Melissa did make contact via email the next day. We have rescheduled for this week.

I have just finished my interview with Melissa... it was pretty awesome, scary, invigorating, unexpected. But I made it through. It was a lot of fun too.

So the moral to this story is.... it would have been way easy for me to go into negatives last week... built the story, stressed, maybe even cancelled the whole thing. But I didn't. I allowed the process to unfold. Maybe there's a good reason why last week wasn't a good
​time to have this chat ... maybe there wasn't any reason at all.. who knows and really who cares. Live in the moment.... allow things to unfold..... we can't control everything. Actually.. other than our own thoughts... we control nothing ... as frightening and implausible as that may seem to some of you.

On the note of this week... tomorrow.. 10th June 2021 is a solar eclipse AND a new moon. Big energy.. new beginnings at the forefront. Lets dream of the new beginnings we want both personally and at the collective. Can't hurt and it may just be the change we want to see.

Namaste
​Blessings and big love to you all ✨