Hello hello.... I was reading a post from way back in early 2020. The last paragraph, while referring at the time to the eclipse... sort of summarised 2020 the year.
'Expect the unexpected and listen with your soul. Act in the ways that best support you and your soul. Don't jump to conclusions, listen, be still and be aware...........
There may be lots of disruptions, change of plans and things jump out of the blue. Go calmly and with patience'
Way back in January 2020 - it does almost feel like ancient history ....who could have ever imagined the world we live in today. .
But yet... we have arrived at the most uncomfortable, foreign, messy, surprising, unfair, confusing time .. I'd say this period of the last year, would arguably take the prize for 'unexpected'
And that's just what's on the surface - the things that are reported and in our line of sight.
For some of us... the underlying conspiracy theories, the divide with the US presidential race and election, UFO's, Aliens, 5G, just to name a few.
We've needed to dig deeper, open our minds and our hearts, we've had to face that potentially we've just been told lie upon lie, betrayal from those we thought had our best interests at heart.
Where do you go when the foundations of what you believed are in question at the very least.
What do you trust..... WHO do you trust..... what tools do you have have to discern what feels right and what feels like it's bogus non-sense.
The answer is .... there is no where to go... you have to trust YOU.
And for some of us.. that is as foreign as stepping into a matter transfer telephone booth (Dr WHO!)
It's a skill we have to now begin to cultivate.
It's possibly getting out of your head and trusting what you feel when you read/hear/watch things. It's about discernment.
Definition of discernment from Merriam-Webster Dictionary
the quality of being able to grasp and comprehend what is obscure : skill in discerning
an act of perceiving or discerning something.
We watch the news, we take advice from the experts, and especially these days.. anything you read or watch on social media is up for interpretation and requires discernment.
I know first hand how the media can sensationalize an event just to get their story.
I lived in the tropics for a few years... prone to cyclones on a regular basis. I witnessed a number of cyclones... (Hurricane's to our Northern hemisphere readers)
I was watching the news report (they'd sent a team of their journalists to the area) from my safe non threatened lounge room... watching how they slanted the story and showed the same footage over and over again, saying how much damage had been done, how many were impacted ... sensationalized it all... and yet the truth was........
It was nowhere near as bad as they were saying. It had now essentially become a rain depression rather than a cat 2 or 3 cyclone. There were just small pockets of suburbs that had been impacted, a small number of people and families..
And yet... this was a story worthy of 2-3 reporters covering the same info over and over again.
This was my first encounter of seeing how much the news can be 'interpreted'. The 'story' gets told ... and I'm guessing .. it's more about making the ratings and bringing the dollars.
Long story short.. it's time we wake up and question more of what we are shown, what we perceive, what we allow to threaten and worry us, what we allow to create fear in our life.
What I'm saying here and this statement has its roots in Quantum Physics.....
Our perception is influenced by what we believe, what we are expecting, what we think is true or real and generally agreed to by society and our culture to some extent.
An excerpt from a post by Wes Tafoya on 07/07/2020
I think he captures the essence of this really well.
'Reality isn't what exists. It is what is agreed to exist. This can come from belief (an acceptance of an assumption) or from the truth (what works for oneself and the majority of all concerned). Look, we know from Quantum Physics that it isn't a theory but tested thousands of times by people disgustingly smarter than most of us. If what you decide to see - not 'want' to see (that is why wanting something just gives you more things to want for) but what you think is real - manifests into reality -'
My add to this.... the reality that manifests looks an awful lot like what you might expect or believe it should be.
Lets phrase this in a different way.
You may not subscribe to the 'you create your own reality' statement.... that's OK...it can be a challenge to get your head around.
Let's ponder this......
Its raining outside.... it's bucketing down.
I am a farmer and my crop is parched dry..... I LOVE the rain.
I am a builder.... today I can't work because it's raining (and hence miss my deadline
I am NOT happy.
Two people have a very different perception of the same event. And hence, their reaction is different
One perceives this as life giving event, good fortune, celebratory event.
One perceives this as a disaster? expensive, nuisance event.
The rain is just the rain.
So .... begin to question.. listen with the intent of being inquisitive.. question things that may seem too far fetched to be true.. or that are too 'tidy' to be true.. how convenient......
Do your own research.. dig a little deeper.
I'm not suggesting you do this for every news item.. but if things cause you concern .. don't just take what you're being fed.
I'm going to tell you another story.
Ever heard of the Mandela Effect....
The Mandela Effect refers to a situation in which a large mass of people believes that an event occurred when it did not. Looking at the origin of the Mandela effect, some famous examples, as well as some potential explanations for this strange confluence of perceptions can help to shed light on this unique phenomenon.
The term "Mandela Effect" began when it was first coined in 2009 by Fiona Broome when she published a website detailing her observance of the phenomenon.
She was at a conference talking with other people about how she remembered the tragedy of former South African president Nelson Mandela's death in a South African prison in the 1980s.
However, Nelson Mandela did not die in the 1980s in a prison — he passed away in 2013. As Fiona began to talk to other people about her memories, she learned that she was not alone. Others remembered seeing news coverage of his death as well as a speech by his widow.
Fiona was shocked that such a large mass of people could remember the same identical event in such detail when it never happened.
if you want to see more examples you can go here.....
Go gently in the world... we live now in 2021 where we're being challenged in unfamiliar ways. It's a strange world.. a little bit upside down, a little bit weird .... but it's our world..
Don't let fear drive you.. we are in this together... and if we stand together we can at least have solace that we aren't alone.. we don't have to face the craziness alone.. and maybe .. as a whole we can change things for the better.
I'll leave you with an image
Are you thinking .... I am a teacher?..... I am a plumber? ..... I am a mother?
Yes - all those might be true and you may be multiple things to many people..
a son, father, chef, manager, taxi driver, accountant.
They are..... what you do, rather than who you are.
They are roles you play and defined to some extent by your culture or community and can differ depending even on the time of day
They are things you fill your day with,
They are aspects you aspire to improve on,
They are what brings you income,
They are things that identify you as belonging to something - a community, a household, a family, a job.
Who are you?
I don't know if you're familiar with Michael Singer's work. He's written 'The Untethered Soul', and the 'Surrender Experiment'.
I am new to his work, although his work actually is a very good way of explaining what I have believed and have been a student of for many years.
We are the consciousness that inhabits our body. That's sort of easy to digest...... but it also has a deeper meaning and understanding to it.
For the purpose of today's entry, I'll keep it simple and introductory - although if you aren't familiar already with the concept or the work - this won't feel introductory.
Walk with me on this one, stay open and patient. Hopefully, this is enough to open yourself into a different way of looking at YOU and your day. Hopefully enough to intrigue but not confuse.
If you are the consciousness that inhabits your body.... then who is the voice you hear inside your head... you know the one.... 'you forgot to pay the electricity bill!, ' what are you cooking for dinner tonight?' .... 'you should've told Wendy that you didn't appreciate her sarcasm', 'why is he looking at me like that?'
The truth is - YOU are not that voice! That is your mind/ego! You are the observer of that voice as you are also the observer of the portion of the day that you are witnessing...
the traffic ahead of you, the account balance that doesn't balance, the phone call you have to make, the long line at the lunch counter, the rain falling, the children playing in the playground, you going for a run or a surf.
If we can start to separate the 'voice in our head' and the distinction that we are the observer of that voice - there's something quite freeing in that.
Suddenly, (or not so suddenly - it's a hard concept to get your head around), then we have choice in how high we jump when that voice puts us at attention.
Suddenly, we can choose whether we beat ourselves up when 'IT' says we have done wrong, or faltered, or made a mistake, or just got out of bed...
Suddenly, we get to choose a higher wisdom, to make a value call on our behaviour, on our actions, on our perceived faults and limitations, on our forgetfulness.
Suddenly, we aren't at the mercy of some judgmental voice in our head.
That feels like freedom to me.
That feels like I get to be a little more conscious in my every day.
That feels like I get to evaluate who/where I am using my 21st century eyes and values. That feels like I have choice in how I respond to the interactions I have with my environment and my day and the relationships in my world.
That feels like I get to decide what version of my self I choose to be in every moment of every day. I am aware and conscious.
I get to listen and perceive and act with my heart as well as my head.
I am honouring my soul.
Some quotes to ponder when answering 'Who am I'
I'm pure positive energy, deliberately choosing contrast for expansion.
Not just contrast for my expansion.
Contrast for the expansion of the Universe, at large!
Contrast for the expansion of the Source, within me.
Leading-edge contrast, for leading-edge expansion.
Descartes, of course, the French philosopher said: "I think therefore I am".
If he had waited a little bit longer before saying anything, he could have come to the point of cessation of thinking and then he could have made the more profound statement:
"I am conscious therefore I am".
Thinking is only an expression of consciousness: a surface expression of consciousness.
Due to brain plasticity, whatever actions we do and thoughts we have either solidify existing neuronal connections or create new ones. If you’ve reinforced a thought pattern or habit for years or decades, it can seem like it’s just “who you are.”
But it’s just a well-reinforced network in your brain — it can be overwritten.
Hello fellow stargazer and traveller
We've just had a really big week astronomically speaking. We had a full moon on 10th January (and also a lunar eclipse!) and also at this time, I'm hearing we've had some metaphysical activations occur - predominantly at Uluru - otherwise known as Ayers Rock in Australia
I've heard that Uluru is the solar plexus chakra centre for the earth ....
not only is it an Aboriginal sacred site and a fabulous geographic icon - it is also an integral part of the energy system of the planet..
When I say ....'I've heard' - that is more to say - I have limited knowledge in this area, but when multiple trusted sources are saying the same thing - I have to accept that maybe there's a truth in the information and at the very least - it's in my interest to explore and allow the information to unfold.
If you aren't aware that the earth itself has similar energy systems to the human body...
you'll have to just go with the flow of that for now.. I will endeavour to add some links that may be helpful for this topic
In summary - Uluru has been activated... please see below link for more info on why this significant ....
the lunar eclipse is also a big deal...
see below link...
So, if you're feeling a bit like you're being pushed around, fragile, unusually anything - there's a few reasons why..
Sometimes knowing the why something is happening might make it a little easier to contend with.
The bottom line with this particular eclipse and planetary movements is lie low, but be aware of the emotions that are surfacing; be tender and yet firm with yourself and remember that eclipses are a time of setting patterns, and potentially abrupt ends or beginnings.
Expect the unexpected and listen with your soul. Act in the ways that best support you and your soul. Don't jump to conclusions, listen, be still and be aware. If you can change even the smallest way you respond to anything with more care and compassion - this is the time.
There may be lots of disruptions, change of plans and things jump out of the blue. Go calmly and with patience.
Blessing to you all
2020 has a nice ring to it I think.
From all accounts, 2020 is going to be a big year.
Even without much astrology knowledge.. I can see that it is potentially a wow packed year. US Presidential elections in Nov 2020, Iran not very happy with US.. North Korea saying one thing, doing another.... Fires burning relentlessly in Australia, floods somewhere else. And we're only week 1.
Feels a bit like chaos rather than a nice ring....
Ah... but that can be the way of spirit (or the universe) - sometimes you have to be seriously shaken up to get to the very bottom of your tolerance, inaction, disbelief, awareness (or your level of 'awakeness') - in order for us to pay attention.
Take Greta Thunberg's speech..... How dare you! How dare you not take care of our planet and squander our resources so that following generations have to clean up your mess.
I raise this - not as a forum for any particular thing that's wrong (or right) in our world ...
but to make the point of being shaken up.
2020 is going to shake us up. It’s going to push buttons, it's going to get us to really start asking 'WTF!'
The 'me too ' movement .. started in 2006, but the consciousness of the planet wasn't quite ready yet. In 2017 and Harvey Weinstein... well - we were good and ready then.
That took on like wildfire. As a culture we had had enough of the all the dirty little secrets that happened behind closed walls - both metaphorically and practically.
Sexual Harassment is by no means a new things - but it's been swept under the carpet for a very long time. Not anymore.
2020 will also start to bring more things out into the open. Be ready to hear things you can't quite believe.
2020 is a '4' year. A year of putting plans into place. It's about creating a tangible plan for the year(s) ahead. I think in order for some of us to build a new foundations or plans, we might have to look at the old structures we live by.
Are they still serving us? Do we still believe what we thought we did last year... 20 years ago?
Who am I today in 2020 and is that person still who I am walking around being.
Is it time for me to re-evaluate the who I am being and the person I am presenting to the world?
Do I need an adjustment/upgrade/makeover from the inside out?
How ever you proceed into 2020..... make sure you set aside a little moment in your day/week to identify the you you want to be presenting and investing in this very auspicious 2020 year.
Blessing to you and your loved ones in 2020.
How was 2019 for you?
I think for most people it was a year from hell.... nothing sort of went to plan; it was a 3 year.... and Google tells me its a year good for personal, professional and romantic relationships, and deciding what you want and relate to within these parameters.
Not all agree with this definition of a 3 year - but until I wrote this, I hadn't realized how closely my life had unfolded very much into this framework.
I don't know about you - there were certainly limitations and hurdles in my 2019.
I had a significant birthday in 2019... I wasn't even going to celebrate.
At the last minute, I decided I wasn't going to give in/up like a wallflower.. I made it special and thanks to the great friends I have - they helped make it special.
I had major brain surgery in Jan 2019... I am still in recovery - the brain is an amazing beautiful aspect of ourselves - and there's no shortage of amazement at what it has to do without us even thinking about it. I know that 1st hand. I am learning to retrain my foot/leg to walk. It takes enormous concentration. I watch little babies trying to walk and I so totally relate. Orchestrating the movement of all those muscles, nerves with precision timing and balance .... that is a work of art. And until my injury, I had never ever thought about what exactly it took. I am sure most of us don't think about what it takes to just walk.
My mother had a small stroke; my sister went through divorce and literal hell in regards to all aspects of her life.
I remember about a week post surgery... I had the most amazing experience.
Not for the longest time had I ever felt like I was really living life.
Life was a chore.... it was one foot in front of the other (hobbling in my case)....... it was get through the day..... it was feed myself, get the groceries, get some washing done.... repeat...... repeat.... oh... look - lunch with a friend..... repeat.....
In the hospital that day - suddenly the wall of
'life is just a get through each day' lifted..
I commented to someone that I feel like I am alive and ready to live. I savoured that feeling and I was on top of the world... couldn't walk, or balance but I felt ALIVE!!!
I was ready to LIVE again.
It was only a few months post surgery that I felt so alive that I put myself on a dating app. Didn't last long when I realized I was jumping the gun a bit. I had recovery to think about before I could go on a date!! But you know how it is..... the spontaneity is there... who thinks about practicalities!
All this to say... 2019 was pretty full... one way or another. Can't say that I ended up where I'd hoped I'd end up... mind you, going into surgery I did have to come to grips with the potential I might never walk again or indeed never awaken from the surgery.
So by that standard.. I have done exceptionally well.
By my other aspirations of being able to swim, run and dance my way through 2019 - well... I still have trouble walking, and a bunch of other symptoms I had not expected... so I'm not there yet... but there's always 2020 now!!
BUT... 2019 did take me deeper within. While I had some understanding of the role of my metaphysical heart, I learnt so much about both the physical and metaphysical heart..
I have probably never been closer to the notion of me - who I am - the soul rather than me the woman/mother/daughter etc
In 2019 I had to let go the notion of how I would earn my income. Quite confronting... but when it's in your face.. you can't do much but surrender. 25 years of doing a particular job... now a bullet point in my resume of life and no more. Very challenging when you have to ask.... well who am then without this aspect of myself?
I am still not sure where I am going with a meaningful way of giving back to the community, giving back and somewhere in all of that a means of earning an income. That is all still unfolding.
But I think my soul is finally getting off the couch and saying yipee! She's finally heard the call... Stubborn girl that she is.. Only took brain surgery to get her to listen :-)
So now I am being, rather than thinking... Twirl that one around your baton!
So while 2019 brought some great unfolding moments ... it was also a great teacher and humbling orchestrator. It was also a year to look deep into the face of fear.. and realize I can overcome.
I can say I am glad 2019 is over..... but I look back and say thank you.. for the many great lessons and gifts that arrived.
Blessings to all in your life.
I wrote this post back in 2016 - and discovered it a few days ago. I think it's time I return. 3 years have gone by - and goodness - haven't things changed. I'll save that for another post.
I've been watching the series - Bloodline
An American family based in the Florida Keys - Proud and strong family .... with a black sheep amongst them.
Danny, one of the 3 sons, returns home and the trouble begins.. or perhaps it began many years ago as children. Cut a long story short... he is divisive or deceitful; nasty; corrupt; cunning; but only because he's had the decks stacked against him for a long time I suspect. No one is born that way - life takes them places they may not normally go if left to their own means.
A lost and a tortured human being - as a result of lies told because the family wanted to keep up appearances and do the 'right thing' and worst of all - at the hands of his own family when he was just a teenager/child when one of the siblings in his care died.
The tortured is now the torturer.
The game plays out because his siblings now try to do the 'right thing' again - once again, trying to protect the family and their brother's name.
He turns the tables on them... to destruction.
I have a similarly destructive sibling... in her eyes, she is righteous and revengeful about things that happened in her own mind many many years ago. There wasn't any death or torture, just families being families.
I have a challenge ahead. How to navigate this with compassion and fairness. How to stay balanced when the attacks happen.
It comes as a shock really - I've never really been caught up in such a dynamic and I tend not the see the darker sides of people. Naive you think - perhaps. But now I have to accept that there is as much diversity in human nature as we can imagine. I watch things on TV and tend to think they are exceptions to the rule.
The challenge is to remember that no matter the outer behaviour, the light is still shining on the inside. There is a beautiful soul in there and it's the ego/pain of youth that is playing out. There is also some aspects of the 'Bloodline' playing out in our family - maintaining status quo; denial; keeping the peace;
I have to wonder if the pain can ever heal if no one says anything. I have tried, but it's not received well.. Who wants to rock the boat.
I have always been a pretty straight up person.. I don't really know how to be deceptive or revengeful with people. They aren't qualities I wish to employ and even if I've been driven to them - I don't find any pleasure or relief in playing them out and I've always stopped short of actually doing what I was angry about..
But now I see that for some people - they are driven to this - whether rightly or wrongly - they actually get a sense of relief and 'justice' from or feel the need to effect revenge or retribution.
But I suspect their impetus is really a cover up to relieve their own pain (misguided in a sense really)
When you hurt, you just do whatever it takes to make yourself feel better. And I wonder if they see what they are doing, or are they so intent on relieving their pain by inflicting the pain on others; do they actually get much relief or pleasure from the revenge. I'm sure in the short term - there is relief and maybe even a sense of success.
I guess we can all justify our behaviour in our mind - either as a protective mechanism - if I hurt them first - I've got the upper hand; or I want them to hurt as much as I do; or they need to feel how bad it is. .... just like they've done to others or to me;
Hate begets hate; revenge begets revenge; distrust begets distrust. No one really wins.
No, I haven't goofed at spelling... I am meaning the word rationalise -
'attempt to explain or justify (behaviour or an attitude) with logical reasons,
even if these are not appropriate'
A light bulb went on today when John Assaraf (multiple New York Times best seller) brought this to my attention in a workshop I was listening to. I've also heard this from Dr Joe Dispenza, Dr Bruce Lipton, Gregg Braden..
but today - it sort of stuck!
So lets back track a little...
Here's a summary of the latest mind/body information and mind mapping thanks to functional MRI's used to see what parts of the brain light up when we are feeling emotions or processing information.
Most of our daily thoughts are driven from our subconscious mind.
By the time you are 35; you are functioning from the subconscious mind 95% of the day. that is to say - most of everything you think, do, feel - is a function of things/events/feelings from the past.
And you thought you were making decisions from the NOW!
Our subconscious mind is a record of the past - every experience, emotion we've ever had is recorded in the subconsious. It's like this major hardrive - yottabytes of data of our life experiences vs the conscious mind - the size of a 2GB drive in terms of capacity (as a comparative) - you get my drift..
We are also looking at processing power of our subconsious for example the largest computer NASA might use in 2019 - compared to an old 1964 IBM for the conscious mind.
Afterall... all those bodily functions we are oblivious to - the digestion, breathing, movement, heart beating, inhalation, energy production - they all happen without us thinking about it - you need need lots of processing power just for that.
Thank goodness we don't need to consciously keep tabs on our heart rhythm and breathing!
This same processing power is also remembering all those experiences we've ever had; and decided (at the time) that we needed to 'mark as dangerous' or 'walk in the park' or anything and everything in between. This is where we now draw upon to decide in the current situation at hand how we might respond.
It's the same processing power that is at play when we might be driving and suddenly think to ourselves... I don't remember driving through those streets - where have I been?..
By the time we are 35, very little of what we think every day is a new thought - it's repeating the thoughts and patterns we have become accustomed to.
With that said, every day we are re-living the same old patterns we are used to.. thinking that this is a new day and we are choosing a new reaction or thought, when in fact, it's a re-hash of experiential reactions we are familiar with.
Back to honouring your soul -
Ever had an urge like ......you want to quit your job because you just hate it?
Want to ask someone out on a date...... want to take piano lessons? learn to Tango?
want to speak up about an injustice?.
but you talk yourself out of it because...... you rationalies your way away from it?
The urge was your soul asking you to take some action or have a belief... a call to adventure or peace or just plain old fun.....
A small clarification... if your thought was about something that could hurt another - then that is not likely your soul speaking.. that is more likely ego. The SOUL will never ask anything of you that isn't for your highest good.
It may seem that speaking up or offering someone a hand, quitting your job might put you in harms way.. but the gift out of that initial nervousness/challenge will be far greater than you can imagine.
But rational thought steps in ..... tells you some lies (you can't afford it; you're too old/young, you can't do that? what will people think?....) so you talk yourself into not taking any action or taking different action that might be similar but not what you actually wanted to do. I am making it simple here .... I know sometimes you really want to quit your job but you have mouths to feed.. bills to pay ..... - and that is for another post. But allow me to say .... sometimes you have to take a leap of faith - there is more than meets the eye Horatio in the nature of the experience we are having on this earth plane ... and TRUST is a big factor of the soul. Things will eventually work out for you in ways you cannot even imagine..
Step back another step.... did you know the hypothalamus gland in your brain has a function of detecting change..... that's one of it's main functions.... warning warning .....change alert... let's not upset the apple cart... lets keep the status quo.
That's a necessary function when you are caveman or out in the wilderness... and why we have the gland in the fist place... part of the fight or flight mechanism.... to protect us from imminent sabre tooth tiger danger ..... but no so necessary in our modern world.
It's also why we know change is 'uncomfortable'... it's that gland releasing all these nuerochemicals to try and unsettle us so that we are wary of change ......
So - the urge to step out of your 'norm' from your soul, arrives into your psyche... (Honour your soul)
Gets overriden by the rational lies your subconsious is telling you.... (stopped by a record of your past) because the hypothalamus has detected a change and is trying to keep the status quo.... (purpose to alert you to change)
YOU are reacting from a place that is a record of your past to stop you doing something in the now....
The only place we can truly ever be honouring our soul is if we are in the present moment... if we stop ourselves because we rational lies ourselves into not taking action, we are letting the past dictate our present moment ....
The minute the mind is orchestrating our present, we have stepped out of our heart space and into the past..
Don't know about you , but that to me is not how I want to function.
If I truly want to be deciding what is best for me .... it HAS to come from the heart... if it comes from any part of the mind, then I am just repeating the past...
Man, I thought I had grown so much until I realised this today... for most part, because I am giving over to the rational of the mind, I am living in the past...
but so glad I ticked tocked this ahha moment.
Putting this into action - It's harder to do -
To reach that balance of living in the moment and not letting our fears dictate or override our intent to live from the heart.
AND ...... awareness is everything... once we are conscious in our daily life to observe our choices - they become easier to change. It isn't something you'll decide today and wham .... tomorrow it's all different. But it is something that we can do every day - a little at a time.. call ourselves on our reactions/behaviours and ask.... is this what I choose for today? Is this what I choose for myself.
Blessings ... may the force be with you.