HAPPY.... What does it mean to you? Does it feel like anytime you're happy.. there's a kick back?

 I've just finished a podcast.
I was asked... what was once 'forbidden' for me in my earlier years that I've transmuted into something I am comfortable doing now.

Being Happy...

Yes... being happy. As a young child, I heard this from a family member.. and while I may have had the cognizance to know it was a very skewed statement.. I know I'd taken it as truth. I lived that truth for quite a while.. It was a subconscious program running my life and choices. Unknowingly by me of course. But I was witnessing the outer confirmation of that belief and not realizing I was creating it, not realizing it was within me.

Gee I'm remembering when I was about 16... I'd just received my school grades.. I was sooooo happy .. I'd done well..  I was soo happy, I jumped on the pushbike and took off..  I felt like I could do anything. I thought I was master of this bike and could weave and turn any old way I wanted. It had been quite a while since I'd riden - school study/assignments and all that... but who was thinking of anything other than being happy and feeling like I'd won the gold award.

Not long into my exuberant riding.. I fell. Gave myself a big walloping concussion, split my head open, landed in hospital via ambulance, a few stitches later and a few days in hospital. My very first thought was ... the remembering of what I'd heard a few times in my young life .....

"The day I'm happy is the day I die."

It wasn't rocket science to piece together the ... I was happy.. and now I'd been struck down for being happy. I'd been put in my place. Who did I think I was to feel such exuberance. Didn't I know I was supposed to just lie low, tell myself I should have done better anyway. It wasn't  like I'd had all A's or anything.. or done more subjects than the necessary.. What was I thinking!

 "The day I'm happy is the day I die."
Seriously.. that was the belief of a family member.. and they lived that way too.
Being miserable was a way of life. It was to be expected that things weren't necessarily going to go well. That someone must have put a curse on them... the evil eye.. there was no other explanation for things not going how they thought they should go.

I mentioned this to a friend.. she had a very similar example.
Her Uncle asked her one day what she wanted from life. She said.... 'to be happy'
His response was .... that's not a goal.. that's not practical... that's not going to get you anywhere!

How many of you think that being happy is a 'thing' that happens to someone else.. to everybody else.... but not you.
​That something bad will happen if you experience being happy. That every time you're happy.you'll have to pay a price for such a luxury???.. 
That you just have to get on with the business of living and paying bills, working hard. 
Happy happens after a few drinks or a shopping spree and is short lived. 

It's probably more prominent in our society than we think.

If you're resonating with this.. happy is something for someone else... please please know that you can change this if you so desire. There are modalities out there that can help you replace the limiting belief that you can't be happy with something more uplifting like 'I am allowed to be happy' or 'I deserve to be happy'
How you feel now doesn't have to be how you feel forever or tomorrow. 

If you'd like to know more about how to change any belief you no longer want to live with, drop me a line. 

Namaste
​Blessings to you all