How the days and weeks pass so quickly.
So much has happened.... and yet so much is still the same. I'll save the interim dialogue for another blog - but I really wanted to share some information I have been listening to over the last few weeks. For multiple reasons I decided to take my health more seriously and embark on some nutritional help via the aid of a naturopath and Chinese herbs and remedies. For any of you you have tried these - we know they don't always taste so good - but we are diligent because we know they are doing us good. As an extension of this - I was viewing an online series about 'Wellness'. It was sensational in all the different ways we can help our bodies. I'll add some notes later on in regards to that. What is very much on my mind at the moment is another series I have been watching - 'The Truth about Cancer'. I'm not sure what you're thinking when you see that title - but while it does cover some options for people who already are suffering with Cancer - it also covers the question of how do we go about improving our nutrition and our emotional, physical and spiritual selves in order to avoid cancer knocking on our door (note small c for cancer - I don't want to give it more power than it already has!) There are many steps we can take - small and big things we can change in our lives to really make a difference in our body's response to handling stress and toxins and which can be factors to the body succumbing to the stressors that open the doorway to cancer. If you get a chance to view the above series, please do - it's eye opening. If you are already dealing with Cancer or have had it in your life or the lives of loved ones - please check it out also - it might give you just that little bit more insight into options you may have. What does this have to do with Honouring your Soul - everything - we are a complete package. Our thoughts, emotions, lifestyle, nutrition are all part of the whole - our bodies are the temple of our soul and ..... the really big bottom line is that we aren't meant to suffer - despite the doom sayers - we are here to flourish and live a wonderful life (with some challenges perhaps) but none that are meant to artificially terminate our time here on the planet. Our bodies are the temple of our soul - and it is incumbent on us to ensure the quality of the food we ingest and the thoughts we think and the way we hold ourselves in everyday life is in alignment with the calling of our soul. It takes awareness; and it may even take courage to discern what is right for us when it may go against what the experts tell us is right for us. Link https://go.thetruthaboutcancer.com/?gl=582822956&a_aid=568ddc8ce5eb4&a_bid=7f01cdd5 Blessings to you all Namaste
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I realized a few days ago that Mercury was retrograde. It started its retrograde journey end of August.... reached it's peak (or station point) 17th September. We've had a number of Mercury retrogrades this year. First in Jan/Feb, then again May/June, now in Sept/Oct and once again in Dec.
I must have a think about the previous events and see if they had a similar effect on me then. I can say without exaggeration, that this has been the toughest few weeks that I can remember. Actually Jan/Feb was tough now that I recall. I quit a 4 year stint in a job that was going nowhere, extremely toxic and left there feeling like I was unemployable - ever . I have recovered but the recovery took many months. I am feeling positive about work and people and most of all - myself. I feel worthy again. Competent. But I digress... given my last post of 'family values' - I can see so much of the difficult scenarios that played out in the last few weeks could be attributed to Mercury retrograde. I've not slept, I've eaten my way into getting bigger.. (thankfully now back to vaguely what I used to weigh), paced the floor with indecision and agitation, unable to navigate out of a paper bag actually... wasn't much fun at all. But mysteriously; a few days ago - my spirits started to lift (After a melt down on Thursday 17th ) ... all the things that felt insurmountable a few days ago - well - they didn't seem so bad. Nothing else had changed... except now we were past the 17th Sept. I must say - I don't really know enough about this to be sure about anything - but it's been a tried and proven tradition of humanity to observe what goes on around us and in the skies. My mum tells me about how they farmed the land when she was little - they knew when to plant and reap based on the moon cycles and associated weather patterns... (mental note- must document all the things Mum has told me over the years). Amazing stuff and all without the help of google. This was information passed down to them from generations before. These are the things they learned from grandparents and taught their children and their children. They monitored life, weather, crop yield and proliferation and learned what worked and what didn't and when. They were true observers of life. They lived in the moment - there was no other place to be. There was no TV, or Google or Facebook. For most part - they had little choice during and post WW2 as there was little in terms of money or food.. Life truly depended on how well their crops fared and their animals prospered. I think we've forgotten how to observe ... so busy disconnecting ourselves from nature in the interest of working and paying bills and making a life. We've forgotten I think....... to dream and look at the stars and pay attention. http://www.astrologyhoroscopereadings.com/2015-mercury-retrograde-calendar.html Mercury Retrograde Can be a Blessing The retrograde cycle tends to reveal what is not working properly, and although it can contribute to delays and frustrations, it can also reveal issues that are important to resolve, fix or address. It is actually a very good time to deal with what has been put on the back burner, or to finish what had already been started much earlier. It is a good time for reflective and creative writing, inner work, journaling, spiritual work and completing long overdue tasks. I've been thinking about this blog idea for a number of years.... and how funny that I would embark on this journey during Mercury retrograde.. We think we are in control - newsflash.... we are to a degree, but we are also under the influence of a bigger force that interplays at a galaxy and planetary level, gravitational impact, magnetic grid impact. Check out the changes in the Earth's axis over the last few years - proof that everything changes and ever evolves .... and this same force is the driver behind that essence that breathes life into a seed in the soil and controls oceans, solar flares and any other natural phenomenon we can think of. We are truly connected as one and part of such an amazing orchestration of life. Blessing to you and your families Namaste How synchronistic.. once again
Soon after my last post - I decided it was time to listen to a Kryon seminar I'd recorded. Kryon's messages do vary but generally have a theme. One particular them this year has been what Kryon sees as the way forward for many of us. Compassion. Act and live in a compassionate way. And I thought about the 'friend' who had been very confronting and verbally abusive. I wasn't really being compassionate. Most people have a good reason why they are out of character or attack. I guess we are not unlike our animal friends. The snake will only strike if you threaten it...... the bee will sting if you are too close or in it's way. My initial reaction after the abusive words was to steer clear and strike them off my lists of contacts. But I am sure I had a role to play in the attack. Clearly there was something I'd said or done. Perhaps my enthusiasm for something had been perceived as condescending.. that would make sense given their response. While I don't need to put myself within their range again - I can look at the incident with more compassionate eyes. Think a kind thought or send a kind word instead. There's enough angst in the world without adding to it. Namaste What a few days! or maybe it's actually been weeks. Just the last few days seem to have 'peaked' Although a few friends have mentioned the same 'phew' .... perhaps there's some celestial happening that's impacting us - or it's just one of those days/weeks. One challenge after another... it's been quiet for a time. I thought I was finally getting on top of things. But I am frazzled today. I wonder often what is it that is going on! Is it some astrological thing, can numerology explain this, is it biorhythms... what is it that some days the glue that holds things together just dissolves.... and it feels like you are forever picking up pieces. I usually forget all the things I know I should do, could do... to make the day easier. Stress levels climb, blood pressure rises, the desire for 'wine o'clock' to appear long before it's due. You collapse into a chair and are almost speechless. Mind has turned to mush. Time to breathe. Deeply and with purpose. Everything is in divine timing and all is well. Soothing words, when you remember to apply them. HA! From what I can see of the past few days - I've given my power away - been led down paths that are of purpose for others; allowed myself to be verbally bullied by one who used the word 'friend' (footnote to self... when one gets the feeling that something is not quite right... LISTEN and maintain perspective) and in the process got my nickers in a knot and flustered and all I could do then was collapse into mush. The real question is - why do I allow this. It seems quite clear in retrospect. I really need to spot this before I get too far down into the deep well of frustration - and not when I've collapsed into a heap. Now that I've taken stock, I can see I survived another day, not as well as I'd liked - but a good night's sleep should give me back some credit in the resourceful and resilient department. So where did I go wrong? I allowed one person's behaviour to de-rail me. I was shocked by their behaviour and approach, felt a little betrayed. And I dwelled on it too much. Should have just gone - "Their problem - move on". But shock can keep you stuck for longer than you'd like. Guess it was a new lesson about human behaviour. I allowed other people's issue and their momentum in their own drama to draw me into their drama. Need to realize this and keep directing my thoughts and energy towards my centre and not allow myself to get caught up in their current. It's their issue and I can't help them if I am getting pulled into their flow. Empathy required, but not my job to solve others' problems. And, as a result of my frazzled state, I didn't take enough care with details. Didn't pay enough attention and depended on what used to be my impeccable eye for detail. While in this frazzled state, I then went and created another problem. I messed up and gave someone the wrong information which meant they were then in a bit of a pickle. I felt pretty bad at what had transpired. What a downward spiral. All because I dwelled on someone else's behaviour when I should have just let it go. I imagine that is a much easier task for some. I have never been very good at it, although getting better. It's been the subject of many hours of introspection, therapy, shamanic healings and Amazonian and Peruvian adventures. The underlying essence is most often about the feeling of worthiness or deserving. The very act of birth disconnects us in most part from our divinity and we start a journey where we have to find and remind ourselves of who we really are. That spark of GOD or creation or divinity. We spend the rest of our lives - some more than others - rediscovering what 'became hidden' that day of birth. It can be pretty hard to not care about what someone thinks, to stand up for yourself when someone attacks you, to dismiss their behaviour when you can see it is more about them than what it says about you..... The essence of that is that you need to believe in you; believe that you are worthy; believe that you are deserving to be here as much as anyone else and that you are as good as anyone else. Most of us won't even know what we are really thinking underneath the frustration, or pain, or dismay, or confusion... but it's likely it's about deserving; worthiness; being allowed (very childlike word that one... but comes up a lot for me) I know it took a long time for me to work that out. Simple isn't it. Easy? Perhaps not quite so. Did I say divine timing.... I'd just closed this post and ding on my email sounded. I've got mail! the email was about Venus being retrograde from July 25 - September 6th. Here's a link regards Venus retrograde and what to expect Specifically mentions Aug 31 (today's date) http://www.lynnkoiner.com/astrology-articles/venus-retrograde-for-2009 http://www.integralastrology.net/page15/page22/page22.html Just about covers it.... did I also say - ask and you shall receive. Namaste That does sound interesting and on first look doesn't seem possible. Seriously - I know I had a bad day the other day - my boss yelled at me, or I forgot Mum's Birthday or whatever the situation. Facts are facts right?
Well, not really so. We have minds that we utilize only a small part of. I'm not here to argue or prove scientifically about any of this - I just know what I know through hard earned experience. Facts are facts, but it's how we perceive those facts that make the difference. I can go into a story about how my boss judged me incorrectly and he didn't give me the benefit of the doubt and I was only following orders or the list can go on for as long as I choose. The real crux here is how I feel about what transpired. I can choose to make it a tale of hardship or I can see it with different eyes. I can beat up on my boss or more often than not - myself and the end result is that I feel awful. Replace any scenario here - it doesn't matter. Forgot to pay a bill, lost my job, had a car accident........ I can play out a story of the idiot behind the car and I'll feel vindicated for a while... and then I'll likely feel like - ' 'and now I have to get the car fixed and how inconvenient', or 'I can't afford this' or 'how am I going to get to work or pick up the kids or play my sport' or 'who do I have to ask a favour of' or 'I don't have insurance'.... ...... the list goes on. By no means are any of these easy to get your head around. And can be very disruptive. BUT - far easier to deal with if you aren't already beating the drum of all the bad and negatives and churning over the challenges and creating a difficult story. Make it a story that has uplift or silver lining. The challenge might be finding that silver lining. There will be one. Let's go back to the boss yelling at you. there's another way to look at this and change the 'story' in your head. The boss is having a bad day and has lost 'it' and taking it out on you. Not fair, but we are all human and prey to all manner of things that impact us. The boss has just learned he has a serious illness? the boss had his boss yell at him and taking it out on the nearest person? The boss is a DH and doesn't know a good person when he sees one! All of the above scenarios have NOTHING to do with YOU. How do you feel when you look back at the day and the boss yelling at you when you put these filters in - the ones where you have nothing to do with the boss yelling at you. Makes a difference doesn't it. Takes the angst out of it and allows you some peace. Lets say you may have had something to do with it - I don't condone the boss yelling at all... mental note - yelling is not acceptable - but this isn't about the boss, it's about you..... and maybe how you can improve on what you're doing and why there was even a need for the boss to make mention of something. How does that change the story.... the story is now about you seeing what you can do for you to help you be a better person. Life can be boring without challenges and growth. Imagine the same day - every day, no challenge, no gift - just the same. Groundhog day. Fun for a bit - but eventually boring You have a few choices here.... you can keep re-telling the story (any story you want to have here) and build up a long list of angst and misery and feeling bad about yourself and the boss and co workers and life and the job,.... it can really be quite a masterful set of scenarios you play out. Or you can look at it and see that we are players in a play - trying to do the best we can and the story can have a happy ending just as it can have a sour ending. You can chose the ending - all 'facts' being the same - you chose the ending. Make it one where the emotional charge for you is nothing or minimal.. You are the captain of your ship / master of your universe / director of your play / story teller of the past. Shakespeare said it so well -
A real story. Compiled by a few different stories from a few friends to protect the privacy of those involved other than myself. The essence is the same; The meaning is the same; The outcome is the same. I'm divorced. I spent years wondering what happened. Why did he do what he did. What did I do to deserve such an outcome. Where was my white picket fence and happy every after. Did I say or do something that tipped him over the edge. Who was influencing him? On and ON........ and on.... I do think this is a female thing - I don't think MEN spend so much time trying to understand the mechanics of it all. A blog for another time! I tried throwing out his stuff.... writing oodles of pages about how I felt, therapy, rearranging the furniture, crying. yelling, punching pillows.. revenge dates and yes - it all helped. But the hurt never really went away. Years later and the hurt was still there. Until I realized that I could change the story - HE didn't DO THAT to me......I was in a play and yes I had expectations, but the play was done and dusted and I could move on. I could go home and buy tickets to a new play - with new actors and scenarios and I could make my life happy again. First step was to acknowledge the hurt I felt, the suffering* that I felt next step was to let it go. Yes, the facts are the same, but the story doesn't have the emotional charge it once had. My story now is that stuff happens and I don't always know how it came about, but I have the reigns and can choose a different way of looking at it. A way that I'm not the victim nor the perpetrator on my life. We are all doing the best we can with what we have. In time, we do get clarity as to why it happened (in most cases) but we can't spend our lives looking for that validation. Far better we let it go and get on with things that make us happy. Live each day as if it was your last. I've come to see that we really don't know what that means .... it's just too hard to let go of the fear of the 'what if's ' but we do try. And sometimes that is the best we can offer. And the thing that counts the most is our 'INTENT' If it's our INTENT to do the best we can - then that is what counts and will often get us over the line. There are physiological reasons why keeping the 'story' alive is detrimental for us. Each story has created a set of neural pathways. Each time you relive the story, you actually fire more neurons along that neural network and keep it activated. Every time you think about it, every time you re live it, every time you reference it..... you keep it more alive. And in keeping it alive - you also feel the emotions connected to that experience. You create a new loop inside the brain that triggers the similar emotions. That scenario happened long ago. You think you've forgotten about it. You're having dinner with an acquaintance , someone you haven't seen in a while perhaps. The conversation is fine but you feel like something isn't quite right. They're getting a bit angsty, raising their voice a bit about something that happened to them or maybe making suggestion about what they think should happen or what you should do. You respond in a way that you think - 'why did I say that'? or 'why did I get so uptight'?. It is possible that you are responding to the same threat you felt when your boss was yelling at you. It's not even the same scenario, but you realize that your response is potentially not proportionate to the conversation at hand. And yet - there you are? What happened? The 'story' that you've been replaying in your head has been triggered. The brain doesn't always know if the players in the script are the same as the previous players. It just knows the story is sounding familiar. It evokes similar emotional responses unbeknownst to you. If the story had a happier ending, then the same story might replay in your neural pathways - but you could shrug it off and not have the emotional response towards your acquaintance as you had before. * Suffering : Meaning "to tolerate, or "allow something to occur or continue" is recorded from mid-13th century. It has somewhat a different meaning today! :-) Hello.
This is exciting. I've created my web page (a very simple one for now ) and now I'm ready to start to write. Funny how when you're on the spot it's hard to know what to start writing. I'm sure I'll sort that out! To say it's been an interesting journey doesn't even begin to cover it. But as we've all heard so many times before - what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I can attest to that! There have been times I didn't think I would live to see the light of the new day; there have been times when I collapsed on the floor and cried for help (East Pray Love - perhaps this resonates with some of you :-) ) There have been days when I couldn't get out of bed and didn't want to; there have been moments where it just felt too hard. But I'm here to also say - despite all that - the journey was well worth it. I would indeed do it again (although I'd like to think I would be smarter about it next time round). Hopefully I'll remember some of the things I've learnt. Blessings to you Namaste |